Recent Entries

• Tendrils

  by Luna Lovegood March 21, 2017
  You came back and I'm squashing the tendrils of hope.It's very faint but it's there.But so much have changed and I don't know what I want anymore.I don't even know if this is just a sighting, an apparition of what was, what could've been.If it is, then it would've been kinder to just stay away, and ...

• Missing

  by Luna Lovegood February 3, 2017
  I've been thinking of you a lot lately.I'm not sure why. I wonder if I cross your mind as often as you cross mine.And it's strange... our relationship was ambiguous.We were friends, but also strangers. I don't even know your last name.We were friends, but also more than friends. You felt something f...

• Wonder

  by Luna Lovegood February 2, 2017
  I wonder... when you come back, will you still be the same person you were?I wonder... when you come back, will it still feel like I've known you my entire life?I wonder... when you come back, will you remember all the stories, the jokes, the secret world we built together?I wonder...Will you even c...
  comments

• Flow

  by Luna Lovegood December 28, 2016
  I find myself lying in bed, crying.I go to sleep, with my cheeks still damp from tears.I wake up, and it starts again.I don't know why I cry.I don't know.I just feel this immense sadness inside of me, and they leak out of my eyes.I sleep so much. I sleep so that I can escape.I don't know when this w...
  comments

• Isolation

  by Luna Lovegood December 5, 2016
  I find myself tempted to cut off ties with people.I am just so tired.I feel like I don't fit with them...or more like I should be only the best version of me.At least if I am alone, I'll know why I feel alone... it's because I made it so.Not because others make me feel that way.
  comments

• Trust

  by Luna Lovegood November 19, 2016
  I wish I could trust people a little more.I have trouble trusting the ones I love the most... I am convinced that they will hurt me in the end, whether intentionally or unintentionally.I know it stems from a crippling fear of hurt. And I know, I know... You can't go through life without being hurt.b...
  comments

• Confession

  by Luna Lovegood November 17, 2016
  I've been cheating on you, AnswerMug.Just had to get that off my chest. Carry on.
  comments

• Memories

  by Luna Lovegood October 31, 2016
  It used to throw me for a loop when people would ask me what my best childhood memory was.... I don't have much that I can remember, much less label as "best memory".Is it because my memory was deteriorating? The memories I can remember was only because of some strong emotional reaction I had attach...
  comments

• Fear

  by Luna Lovegood October 20, 2016
  Sometimes I feel like I am two people.One is a scared little girl, always trying to run away from things that seems dangerous.The other is the woman, who reassures the little girl all the time."It's okay, nothing to fear..."I think the hardest part is when the woman herself feels scared, there reall...
  comments

• Dissolution

  by Luna Lovegood October 8, 2016
  It's wonderful, isn't it?When two people connect, and you build a secret world with a language that only the two of you understand.It builds and builds, and suddenly what was once a vague imagining becomes this vibrant world, built by hours and hours of conversation.And then one day.... it just stop...
  comments

• Ignoring my mind

  by Luna Lovegood October 4, 2016
  I hate that I have to fight so hard to ignore that voice in my head...That destructive whisper, just saying all these hurtful things.Most days I live peacefully with it. It's there, it's always there. I just know that I don't need to listen to it.Some days that whisper seems like a roar, noisily sho...
  comments

• Nostalgia

  by Luna Lovegood September 6, 2016
  When we hugged goodbye, you had squeezed me a little tighter than necessary. I was transported to the past for a second. That 21 year old me would've been ecstatic to be in your arms. It would've been everything she dreamed of, being held by you, someone she had cared for so deeply, and thought abou...
  comments

• Writing my feelings

  by Luna Lovegood July 17, 2016
  I noticed that I write my best posts when I'm unhappy.   But today I feel something as close to contentment as I've ever gotten.   I don't know how to frame how I feel in flowery sentences and unique combination of words.   I am not familiar enough with this feeling as I was wit...
  comments

• Words

  by Luna Lovegood June 14, 2016
  I fall in love with words. I fall in love with beautiful phrases and thoughts. And I lose sight of what is real, and get lost in a fantasy. Then I hit the ground and wham, reality. With all its debris around me.
  comments

• Balance

  by Luna Lovegood June 1, 2016
  I find that there are days when I can be positive, an optimist, then comes the plunge. There are always highs and lows. The lows are always rough to fight through. I always say that the lows make me appreciate the highs all the more. But when I'm there... it always feels like a battle that takes a b...
  comments

• Wedding

  by Luna Lovegood May 22, 2016
  My friend of 15 years got married today, and I was one of her bridesmaids.   As part of the "inner circle", I was of course privy to a lot of events that not everyone gets to witness. One of which is where, as part of local tradition, the father of the bride gives away his daughter by recitin...
  comments

• Laughter

  by Luna Lovegood May 17, 2016
  A sense of humour does a world of good. The ability to laugh over some of the bitter things in life is invaluable. I've learned that I need to be able to find humour in most situations, just to make it easier to handle. And then there are times that someone making me laugh is enough to pull me out o...
  comments

• Wonder

  by Luna Lovegood May 11, 2016
  I sometimes wonder why I find myself on this site.   Some people may accuse me of running away from real life...   In a way I do, I guess. The feeling of being a square peg trying to fit in a round hole goes away when I am on here.  
  comments

• Loss

  by Luna Lovegood May 9, 2016
  I don't think I've experienced actual loss in my life.   I've lost friendships. I've lost pets.   Family? Sure.. I've lost family. My grandparents are gone but I was still too young to feel actual loss. I remember thinking, "Ok it feels weird not having grandfather around anymore." I b...
  comments

• Paths

  by Luna Lovegood May 7, 2016
  We can't always keep looking back and wonder if you're doing the right thing. Someone once said to me, "even if you are stumbling in the dark, if you are stumbling forward, that is still progress." So I continue stumbling. I continue following this path that I find myself on, even though it feels li...
  comments

• Change

  by Luna Lovegood May 5, 2016
  Change is inevitable. One of the most clichéd sayings (which I detest) is "the only constant in the world is change." I don't know why I detest it so much, because it is true. Maybe I hate the idea of change. I like staying with the familiar. I always look back to my past self and think, "Oh ...
  comments