I speak only for me. Having been around the barn several times I know that what I thought was true love wasn't. It was like. Is that enough?

When you are in the throes/midst of something you are not always the best judge of what "it" represents. Only after in retrospect can you evaluate more clearly. Just as historians need time to elapse before they write about prominent people. It takes time to see what effect those people had. It can never happen in the moment. Only after.