My integrity is close to destroyed.
Mean World Syndrome is a cognitive bias where people perceive the world to be more dangerous than it actually is due to long-term exposure to violence-related content in mass media12345. This exposure can lead to increased feelings of fear, anxiety, and pessimism, as well as a heightened state of alertness.
When guys hang out invariably we end up busting each others balls, giving each other shit, acting cocky, etc. Now I understand it's all in good fun and not meant to be hurtful, but I just don't play along. It's not in my nature.