The poor old man can't quit her. He is obsessed with her and thinks of her every waking minute and gets off on saying her name. He knows she can never be his and it is KILLING him so he keeps her alive however he can. It would be pathetic in a 17 year old. But in an old goat like him it's embarrassing. Well not to him. To him he delights at the sight of her and the thought of her and the sound of her name. Of course he might well be sleeping with a dozen other dames too but he is always thinking of his beloved Hillary. Hillary. Hillary. Hillary. Hillary! :(