When I played poker with family/friends they'd fold when I had a good hand. It was all over my face. A Poker Face is anathema to me. I cannot pull off any kind of deception. I fail at it so I stopped trying many decades ago. I discovered that fact when I was quite young. The worst thing for me personally would be to be caught in a lie of any kind. That would be humiliating and embarrassing. I'd rather be honest about everything right up front and take my hits such as they are than have to worry about being found out by someone sometime. Now I did do some acting in high school and that was fun. But I was a different person on stage than in real life and it was not a secret. Everyone was in on it. Different strokes. You say you were deceptive when you taught. Can you tell me how that deception played out for your students ele? Thank you for your reply! :)
This post was edited by RosieG at October 10, 2016 2:21 AM MDT
Sometimes I had to act out different emotions to the students. Mostly I was myself, but there were times I would act very angry one minute and switch to being kind the next. I suppose one wouldn't call that deception though. Sometimes I would act as if I didn't know much about what I was teaching and use that in a lesson for them to try, as a class. It is difficult to explain until you have been in front of the students.
I am adept at it. But as to why, there isn't a 'true' me. Not yet, not fully. I'm intensely protective of what I know to be me and sharing that with others ... well, that's another story. Maybe one day there will be, I'm only half way there.
I am an excellent liar Rosie - it's just acting after all. However, I make a point of not doing it unless I see a distinct and pressing need. I also make a point to avoid producing lies that will require other lies to back them up - that's just stupid.
So I don't lie when I'm here and I don't lie to people close to me. I won't lie unless there's a direct benefit to me or mine. In my experience that happens very rarely, and the truth is often the best policy in most situations.
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