Don't you remember the unstoppable sense of communal isolation you were forced to confront with thoughts excluding everything but that toxic thought? When it came to the surface though they were forced to admit with struggling admittance of honesty that they were a prig because they were bodily abused as a kid and felt worthless as a sexual object? All their nice friends said goodbye to them and they turned into heavy metal monsters? You are how you we were raised. I love those Newports at 12 though. And fear over your disgusting hair!