That's good Sharonna, I'm happy you found yourself. I don't drink either, but not out of any moral stance, I just don't like it. Which is a good thing considering that I'm not very good handling self medication. I'm glad you had the strength to do it, and I'm not surprised you did either.
I tried and failed several times. Finally, I think I finally made myself so sick, that now, even if I think about drinking, I get sick just thinking about it. I think I hypnotized myself into actually seeing and smelling that rotgut everytime I picture a drink. I can't stand to feel sick and that stuff makes me sick real fast. So, don't pin any medals on me. I cannot handle it any longer even for one drink. I think this was a great gift the Universe handed me. I cannot do it, so I don't get in the way.
While I poke fun at Ms. Winehouse, I am saddened she could not overcome her demons. Knowing what I know about the physiological effects of substance abuse, it's not surprising many people succumb.
I know you feel this way. Of course. We all do. But the one thing that strikes me about most young people with substance abuse problems, they may screw up and they may take it too far, but most do not keep trying to DIE over and over again. Some have close calls, some do not make it at all, I should have been dead so many times I have a lot of nerve even saying any of this. But even as "fey" as I behaved, I knew how to survive and try to not die.
Amy and people like her have zero filters. She was talented, loved and loving and had opportunities to get sober and yet, she just could not keep herself from dying. It is hard for healthy young people to kill themselves by overdoing it, and yet people like Amy manage to die no matter how much is in their favor, simply because the source of the addiction was not addressed somehow. So, in spite of having superbly healthy bodies, something in their makeup is not being addressed and they cannot function without this crap.
People like that seriously need to be locked up and not let out for a number of years. And I do not mean jail. I mean total supervision where they cannot get in trouble. Clean diet, exercise, change of perspective through maybe education? Something to replace that gnawing urge to kill oneself.
This post was edited by WM BARR . =ABSOLUTE TRASH at November 24, 2016 5:59 PM MST