She was always a "kind" person. I think that is what really mattered in the end. I know some highly religious people that aren't very nice at all. I never understood how they could claim such devotion, yet be such shits in life.
Oh, I have been down and out and luckily, never fell into a crazy church. I think being exposed to a traditional church in my early years was a good thing.
NO. Years ago I did belong to a church who told me I'd go to hell if I didn't convert my family And friends to THEIR church. I left that church and religious teachings. I am a Believer, just not a religious person.
Absolutely not no way no how not now not ever ...Religions are weird plus what you describe is bonkers... ...Bottom line? Religions create confusion and will not give you a direct experience of God. ...and that's our basic foundation, what we need to experience and know. ...God is within you know your Self... ---end of preaching--- ...LOL
This post was edited by Baba at December 8, 2016 4:34 PM MST
It's unfortunate that you have not found the right religion yet. Confusion does not come from God. Knowledge and understanding are made for the mind like water is made for truth (CS Lewis). Truth exists and is the proper object of study. Please keep searching.