You have a horrid gift thrust upon you. When you finally get a handle on it, it will allow you to see far better than those who have not endured this trial. I pray you find relief SOON. Because you are NOT alone in this, there is much research and a lot of potential cures for it.
I don't see any in you, Mr. W. They are not apparent. But we all have some. You know that one thing that manages to do us in in the end. I just GOTTA open my big mouth and tell people off and I pay for it in spades. The Universe is not putting up with me doing that any longer.
Hmmm. I have a very nasty temper and it takes a while to kick in, which I've found gives some a false sense of security. In the past it's given a few the impression that I can be backed into a corner, which has never ended well. But I'm very good and behave myself online, most of the time.
And yes you're right, you do pay for it. But in your defence I would say the level of 'paying for it' is not always commensurate with your original, offensive action. Offensive or tactless can also be true and if so, I think deserve a response beyond a snarl.
And I'm rather miffed that you didn't get my appallingly bad joke. :)