I can relate to that. Here's why. When I was about 8( as you know I'm 79 now) there had been something my folks had said we were going to do that I was got so excited about. I don't recall what it was Ele but I know it was something I was looking forward to with such anticipation! At the last minute it fell through. Kaput! Just like that! I was so disappointed. But I didn't like the feeling so right then..I kid you not..I promised myself I would never again look forward so much to anything lest it fall through at the last minute. That's how I am now. It mitigates disappointment. If it happens it happens and that's just swell. If it doesn't no big deal. It isn't the end of the world. I don't lose anything at all by doing that except perhaps the deep sense of being deprived/cheated. So far so good! Thank you for your reply and Happy Saturday! :)