No Zack. Not you my friend. I KNOW of that part of your life that hurt you so very much. Years ago you shared it with me on Answerbag. But you are still here m'dear contributing and participating and being involved and CARING about what goes on around you. So no Zack. Not you. I have a couple of holes in my heart too but they aren't filled with hate...just sorrow/sadness. I think sorrow and sadness are not all that good for the body either but I don't think they can consume you and destroy you. Thank you for your reply and Happy Sunday! :) ((hugs))