I can certainly identify with that! I have a fair few books, I worked in a kitchen, I CAN cook, and I love nothing better than to watch cookery programmes.. I could watch cookery programmes all day every day.. but I NEVER cook if I don't have to.. and I detest it it when I do have to!
I think we have to reflect on how something we love can turn into something we have interest in but don't want to do when we end up cooking time after time after time after time, often with no thanks or appreciation...