The closest was just a passing fanciful thought; "Gee! Seems like he might make an ideal Dad... but I wonder if that would still be the case if I knew him really well."
Of course, I never got the chance to know such a man - so the inner question was futile.
The wish to get pregnant by a man I met recently at the club hit me for the first time in my life. It's quite a shock I haven't recovered from yet. I never expected such a powerful thing could happen.
I've recently gotten together with a fellow geek I know from work. I'm already imagining the possible babies I can have with him, but I'll have to resist until I get to know him better and get my life in order. I always thought I was asexual or something, but maybe I just haven't met the right guy until now. My types tend to be shy so maybe that's why it took so long.
No. I never had the desire to have a child. I had two and cannot imagine my life without them. But that desire to be a mother thing that I hear people talk about....I don't have one of those.
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