It used to be important. It used to matter. That's when I was young. If anybody wants to think that I'm a square peg in a round hole that's fine. Then, there are those who have known me for a lifetime and they are shocked over the late life transition I've made into the clergy. Those that I'm meeting now think that it's been a life long vocation. If they only knew.
I've always been a misfit SC. Still am. I've never really fit in easily anywhere. As a child I was painfully shy. I also was an excellent student so I skipped a few grades making me younger than the other kids. Two strikes against me! You don't outgrow whom you are. You just maybe soften some of the sharp edges as you age. For years and years I felt isolated. But you know what's so nifty about the internet? If you're lucky (and I have been so lucky) you find there are others who may not be exactly the same as you but who "get" you and accept you as you are. That's means a lot to me. I can't be anyone I'm not. Never could. What you see is what you get and I wish my younger self would know that everything would turn out okay. So you are part of the clergy then? Are you familiar with the poet John Donne? "No man is an island entire of itself...never send to whom for whom the bell tolls, it tolls for thee"? That is his Meditation 17 I believe. He led a very rascally life early on and then found God and changed.
I don't care what folks think of me. For all I know, some may think that of me.
If someone were to quiz me on famous actors, sports/sports figures, or even the current "hot" shows on TV, I'd fail miserably. That stuff doesn't interest me one bit. If that makes me unhip, so be it.
One friend repeatedly says, "You're such a goodie-goodie!" I can't tell from his tone of voice whether he thinks that's a good thing or not - and I'm afraid to ask, "What do you mean?"
I like to be straight, in the sense of honest, not fooling around with drugs, and acting with integrity. I work with intense dedication, always practising to improve, aiming for excellence. I value independent thinking, am socially progressive, environmentally switched on, and I'm a creative.
I'm generally open-minded about others' choices and lifestyles as long as their actions (or words) cause no harm.
But "square" in the sense of very conservative - no - I'm not that in any way. If someone thought that of me, I wouldn't take offence - there's nothing offensive about it. I'd just assume the obvious - they don't know me.
Squares, after all, are just as important and valuable as circles.
This post was edited by inky at May 21, 2019 11:45 PM MDT
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