Where are the Three Steps to Heaven, ? We live on the ground floor and feel we're missing out on so much fun :(

I don't want to feel the way I feel about death at present.  I have gone years and years being at total peace with death and knowing that the afterlife is very alive.  Very free from anything negative unless you bring that with you at death.  Right now?  I feel fear and anxiety and that colors my view of death for some reason.  I don't trust my feelings about anything right now.  I am in survival mode and it screws up my thinking.  

They're more than tree steps...



And of course, there is this...