Of course your reply prompts a followup question Lady Ondine. What about your inside? Do you feign kindness but really don't "feel" it? People are often "polite" on the outside but inwardly feel differently. To get along we sometimes have to take on a persona that we don't really FEEL. Thank you for your reply and Happy Saturday to you! :)
Well, it’s kind of a tough question. As you already know, I am a sadist who has some unsavory fantasies of what I would like to do to others involving torture and death if I knew I could get away with it. I know not to act it out of course, but the desire is there. It’s not a passing thought either, but something I think about all the time. But on the other hand, my personality is genuinely kind. I will listen to anyone’s problems, I am always warm to people and never act rude—that is not an act. My immediate instinct is to be warm and kind. But inwardly, I love pain and suffering and do not feel empathy or any kind of distress at hearing of the suffering of others. Does that make sense? So, even if I hypothetically did get to live out my fantasies, my demeanor would still likely seem kind and non-threatening.
You are incorrect in your "as you know". I did not know you are a sadist nor anything about your unsavory fantasies. I also don't know if you are serious or full of sh**. I am not inclined to pursue anything further here with you in either case. I have misjudged you. I'm sure there is an audience for you but I am not among them. Thank you for your reply. I only got up to your second sentence and stopped reading. If you are joking I don't find it remotely funny. If you are serious we have nothing in common worth discussing. Different strokes. To each his/her own. SIGH.
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