... What if that's me in the picture? Sometimes I feel like I'm really close to escaping, breaking through to the other side, then I get sucked in again and the cycle repeats. I am waiting for waiting for waiting for waiting--there it is. The Cycle.
with a proven method to break on through to the other side the rewards can be experienced instantaneously. they are just there...waiting, waiting waiting
I think it is literally a spiraling out of control. People are deeply disturbed by their inability to control certain outcomes and to such an extent, they often forget about the little control they have... control over themselves. The neglect this duty and before they know it they're in full on self-destruct mode.
It isn't as if people wake up and say: "I think I'll self-destruct today, spiral out of control and spend several years trying come out of that dark pit." It happens slowly and surprisingly, they never see it coming.
Define "self-destruct". I know people who have done so by the measure of most people...yet not by their own. I've also seen people hit rock bottom and get back up, only to have life...or death, smack 'em down again.
It's never easy watching people "self-destruct" by our definition of the term, particularly those close to us. I have learned, though, that what I thought of as their life imploding was to a few very liberating. Some people are simply not built to live by society's standards.
I like that! Can't help my ways, though. I am a thinker. The world needs thinkers, too. It's too bad it's too hard not to get down. I do feel different today, if that means anything.
Baba 