Are you alright?

Oh, I'm sorry to hear about your aunt passing.
I know how you feel about family drama and funerals, trust me.
Lots of drama in my family!
I was thinking that you must be going to see your aunt because you had mentioned her situation on an earlier post.
Also when I saw that you were active on Answermug late last night I knew that you were catching up on work and I remember that you used to still be up when your youngest would wake up sometimes, I believe?
I remembered that because I thought about how tired you must be in that situation.
Anyway, thanks for the reply I know you got a lot going on, but it's always nice to hear from you and thankfully I run into you when I visit Answermug. : )

You have a really good memory. I don't know if you're remembering so far back that you can recall when my youngest was so little that he'd still wake up to eat during the night or if he was waking up to start the day and was older. In either case, you'd be right. :)

I had a hard time deciding on what to do with my aunt. I didn't figure I could catch her and I ended up being right on that. The earliest I could have arrived was the day she passed, but she was non-responsive the day before that anyway. And, she had people with her, so I'm sure she was looked after well. I don't think I'd be honoring her memory well by being involved in skirmishes, so I figured it was best to let it be. She and I were on good terms and that's all that matters. 

I love having AM to bounce back to throughout things, especially when life gets sticky. I'm always glad to see you when you come back as well. Your disappearing acts always mess with my head though. lol 

Thanks, I kinda have a good memory, I guess?
I don't remember names very well, but if someone is nice I remember everything about them.
I think it was that your child was waking up to start the day.
At least you and your aunt were on good terms my brother and I hadn't spoken to one another in years.
I did love him though so I dressed up and went to the funeral and comforted my mother and sister, but I took my son home and left before the lunch with relatives and my brother's co workers, friends etc.
I didn't want to be forced into talking about any family drama.
One of his friends did come up to me just before the funeral and told me that my brother had been talking a lot about us lately and that he just wasn't going to make the first move toward reconciliation.
So it made me feel like at least there was hope and if we had had more time maybe we could've been brothers again at some point?
It was something to hold onto anyway.
The saddest thing is that he died and he still has a child the same age as my son.
I went to the beach recently with his daughter and my son and we played at the park.
I felt kinda like my brother was there with us because I feel like in spirit he will be wherever his daughter is.

Anyway, sorry about my dissapearing acts, I kind of bounce back and forth between Answermug and other sites and sometimes especially in the winter I get headaches and I don't know why, but my phone seems to make them worst so I power it off most of the time.
II hope I can stick around this time and keep a profile and just take breaks from time to time, but still remain in contact.
I really had some messed up years so I wasn't always functioning well and just hope you know that my dissapearing never had anything to do with you.
I'm just in a better place in my life now and I'm glad you're here. : )

This post was edited by Benedict Arnold at July 31, 2017 8:27 PM MDT

I'm sorry your brother's passing happened the way it did. I tend to think that the people who have passed are still aware of us and what's going on to some degree, so it seems to me that if the feeling of remorse was genuine, the deceased know it. It's good that your niece is a part of your life- that's meaningful for a lot of reasons. 

I just get used to having you around and then I get excited and want to say something to you or respond to something you said and I realize you're gone. But, I know how you are, and I figure you'll return when you're good and ready. ;) 

Aww...I'm sorry.

I think you're right about that. : )