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A statement I'll probably regret making:


Some here may know I have an anxiety disorder. Generalized Anxiety Disorder. Believe me, it's real. And it's not fun to have. (But there are much worse things I could have, I realize.)
The last several weeks I've not been so good in dealing with anxiety. But I'm strong. I can journey through, a moment at a time.
A prayer (even if one is not a believer, it's incredibly good advice, it seems to me)  that helps is the Serenity Prayer:

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.

The anxiety feels almost crippling at the moment. "Almost" - - so I'll even take solace is knowing it's only "almost," not "totally," crippling at the moment.
:)
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Posted - September 19, 2017
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  • 7795
    Welcome to the club, stud. This post was edited by Zack at September 19, 2017 10:44 PM MDT
      September 19, 2017 10:59 AM MDT
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  • 23641
    Yeah, it can suck, and not in a good way.
    :)
    Ha!

    You hang in there, too!
    :)
      September 19, 2017 11:01 AM MDT
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  • 7280
    A comma might have helped to clarify things for me; but if there really is a "club stud,"  can you send me an application and the number of references needed?

    And is there a waiting list?

    Regards...
      September 19, 2017 11:05 AM MDT
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  • 23641
    Thanks, again, Zack - Mr. GenXer!
    :)
      September 20, 2017 9:01 PM MDT
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  • 7280
    Bad brain chemistry is not your fault.  

    There are at least 6 medications out there that can restore your brain chemistry to effective normalcy and change your life.

    Pexeva (generic---paroxetine) is one.

    It's worth a visit to a specialist---psychiatrists are good ones for this type of issue.

    Cognitive Behavioral Therapy is also effective.

    I know we've discussed this before---Hang in there.
      September 19, 2017 11:01 AM MDT
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  • 23641
    Thanks tom jackon. I'm allowing outside circumstances in my life presently to aggravate my anxiety. Yes, and thanks for the reminder of the brain imbalance. I forget that sometimes.
    I am on medications for the anxiety.
    Perhaps a psychiatrist may help. I've seen professional counselors.
    And the little cognitive behavioral therapy I've been exposed ot has helped.
    Days continue to be challenging.
    Thanks for being supportive of my "answerMug statement!"
    :) This post was edited by WelbyQuentin at September 21, 2017 4:13 PM MDT
      September 20, 2017 8:36 PM MDT
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  • 46117
    I take cannabis.

    It works for me and I take a high dose.  You may not benefit.  You may need a lot less.  But if I were you, I'd consider it. 

    I have anxiety.  That is the only thing that puts me back to normal and makes me feel great.   Also, I am not out of it or high.  I have the right dose for me which would probably be way too strong for most people.  But, like I said, I don't know what your medicines are like over there. 

    Cannabis is legal in many places here.
      September 19, 2017 11:02 AM MDT
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  • 23641
    I'm becoming more and more pulled to the idea that cannabis would be of help to me. I have a friend who repeatedly has told me the same thing. It's something I'm thinking about.
    Thanks, Shar to the Rona!
    :)
      September 20, 2017 8:38 PM MDT
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  • 27
    Welby I'm not going to patronise or insult your intelligence by making out that I know what GAD is and then go on to advise you of what to do because I'm just a 19 year old kid and I still have a lot to learn about life. I have an idea of what GAD is from reading your question and I now know that it is a anxiety disorder, and I believe that what you are experiencing because of this disorder is very real, and yes, although there are worse things that you could have I believe that when you are experiencing GAD every day or most days to you there can be nothing worse. All I can say to you Welby is try and fight through this disorder and if you need to take medication to try and control it then take them, although sometimes medication can have unwanted side effects, but you should still take them as prescribed by your doctor. If talking about what you are going through helps then talk to a counsellor or or psychiatrist, if you feel comfortable you can even talk about it on here, I don't think that anyone is going to judge you and if there are people that judge you on here or in the real world then don't let what they have to say upset you because what they have to say should be of no importance to you. To me, you are still the Welby that I love to converse with and nothing is going to change that, nothing! When you are experiencing GAD just try and not panic because if you do you will get even more stressed which can be a slippery slope (so to speak). Keep well Welby and I will always most definitely remember you in my prayers, and you can always message me for a chat if you so wish. You take care now and lots of hugs. :) 
      September 19, 2017 5:50 PM MDT
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  • 7126
    You're a very intelligent, thoughtful 19 year old.   :-)
      September 19, 2017 6:07 PM MDT
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  • 27
    Thank you LO. :-)
      September 19, 2017 6:56 PM MDT
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  • 23641
    Gabriel! Thank you! What you've shared here with me is some of the most nice and most supportive and caring thoughts I've received in a long time. It was as if you were sitting beside me saying all of this.The care and support you've offered mean the world to me. I agree with everything you wrote, too.
    I will add that I am on medications for the GAD. I don't abuse them or anything.

    Gabriel, I don't know what more to add here at the moment because outside circumstances in my life do continue to challenge me greatly and that all adds to the anxiety's strength at times. But do know I've heard your words and caring spirit.
    Yes, I plan on keeping well and I wish you the same, my friend!
    :)

      September 20, 2017 8:45 PM MDT
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  • 27
    Welby, just remember that when things get rough you have a friend in me, and its a friendship that will never end and I sincerely mean this. I can see from your interaction with myself and others on here that you are a kind and gentle soul, and that you are a lovely gentleman and I really value your friendship and kindness. We are many miles away from each other but I care and when outside circumstances in your life challenge you greatly just smile and remember that you are loved not just by me but also by the people on here. Hang in there Welby because you are going to be ok. Don't be a stranger Welby because I am always here to support you in any way that I can. :) 
      September 21, 2017 5:34 PM MDT
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  • 23641
    Gabriel, thank you from the depths of my soul. Your kind and caring words surpass the kindness and care of many people in my "real" life. Do know I'm around for you, too. It's always grand to see when you've posted on the site and, especially, have shared your support and hugs with me.
    At this moment I am eating a long-delayed meal (another bad thing I do -- I don't take care of myself sometimes when the anxiety gets intense; I waited much too long to eat) and I am not-so-satisfied with my response to you. You have a great gift of expressing yourself with the written word.
    My weak attempt here at responding to your lovely reply, can, at this moment of tiredness for me, be only summarized with a big hug and a big sincere "Thank You!" And do know I wish I could write words to better communicate my gratefulness to you.
    You're great, Gabriel!
    :)

    I need to sign off now, I believe, the outside circumstances in my life are calling me out again. I dig deep to that inward peace. No panicking, like you said. Be Well -- see you soon, take care!
    :) This post was edited by WelbyQuentin at September 22, 2017 7:26 PM MDT
      September 21, 2017 6:37 PM MDT
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  • 7126

    I certainly hope you won't regret sharing this Welby as there are people here who love and support you.

    Anxiety is VERY real and I hope you're receiving the proper medical and psychological treatment necessary to minimize your suffering. Your description of crippling anxiety suggests to me that this may not be the case. And white-knuckling it is not an effective way to go. I'm so sorry you're experiencing such pain and discomfort. Please do take care of yourself and never hesitate to share. Because at the end of the day we're all human, we all suffer in one way or another, and we're all in this together. :-)
      September 19, 2017 6:03 PM MDT
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  • 23641
    Thank you so very much, LyricalOne!
    You've nailed it.
    The fact that I"m often exhausted by mid-day from my seemingly lack-of-effective dealing with anxiety is telling me something. I'm still in the process of figuring things out. 
    I am on medications for the anxiety. I've seen professional counselors. Perhaps I could try them again or a psychiatrist? I don't know.
    I'm still suffering strongly to be quite honest.
    A day at a time, though.
    "White-knuckling it" -- gosh, that nailed what I feel like. I appreciate your putting those words to at least a bit of what I feel.
    Thanks!
    :)

      September 20, 2017 8:51 PM MDT
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  • 6124
    Welby, I'm so sorry to read this.  You've done a very good job of holding your head up here and carrying on.   Sending you hugs and kisses dear.
      September 19, 2017 6:10 PM MDT
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  • 23641
    Hey, thanks, Harry!
    I do enjoy this site and the people on it. Sometimes it's my most relaxed I feel, the solitude of my home at the computer, yet, also, at the same time, the congregation of other people on the site - -  somehow it helps sometimes. (My jobs require constant interaction with people all the time, so the answermugging type of interaction can be a bit different and OK.)
    :)
      September 20, 2017 8:55 PM MDT
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  • 11087
    If more of us with GAD spoke openly, we might help remove the perception that it is somehow a weakness instead of simply our body producing more of the stress hormones than we can use. For me, medication and physical activity have helped a lot. You'll get through this, just be kind to yourself in the meantime.
      September 19, 2017 6:31 PM MDT
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  • 23641
    "Bingo" and Amen!
    Thanks, JaneS! I'm with you all the way - -  including your much-appreciated-by-me wish for me to be kind to myself. Funny you mention that - - if there's one thing I've been finally realizing is that I do not take care of myself nor am I that kind to myself.

      September 20, 2017 8:57 PM MDT
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  • 7683
    Welby, you are a gentle AMer who is always kind and nice. Please try meditation, it calms you, strengthens you physically, mentally and spiritually. If you are interested I could tell you more about it. It works, it really does my friend!
      September 19, 2017 10:48 PM MDT
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  • 23641
    I guess I don't always think about how I come across on the site to others. If I come across ot you as gentle, kind and nice -- well, I could not ask for a better answerMug  reputation.
    :)
    Yes, meditation is something I'm considering and have delved in to a bit but not for a long enough stretch of time to note a difference in my state of mind/being.
    :)
    Thanks, Veena.K!
      September 20, 2017 9:00 PM MDT
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  • 7683
    https://youtu.be/ADnOY7F9xWEOh you are a kind soul, I dunno where you're located, just google for the nearest yoga centre, here, this 40 minute yoga I do daily, yoga and meditation go hand in hand. Try it ..;))
      September 20, 2017 9:20 PM MDT
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  • 46117
    Great advice for all of us nervous nellies, Veena.
      September 20, 2017 9:22 PM MDT
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