Money was given to me and yes most of it I gave right back to someone else. I think even after some other expenses I'll still have a bit left over for something selfish.
Me? I guess I'm OK. Some financial concern usually underlies, though, a lot of the time.
If it helps, your question reminded me of a song I like, by a group I like --War. "Livin' in the Red."
I would have posted the song but I only found one youtube video of it - - and the poster had added politics/political images to the song. So I left it there. Good song to me, though.