I've been thinking a lot about my what-if person...
What if we hadn't been so scared to say how we felt back then?
What if we weren't on opposite sides of the planet?
Now so much time has passed, but we are still friends. I'm seeing him for the first time in years this week... It's put me in such a nostalgic mood.
I don't go there. I find that line of thinking quite boring and useless. Anything I do not do automatically becomes a "what if". Since I didn't, I leave it behind.
My entire life is. "what if...?"
To me it is an exercise in futility.
That's sweet Randy :-)
What if EP hadn't closed down...what if I hadn't joined AM...what if I wasn't intrigued by his smart yet grumpy responses...what if I didn't make the first move...I would have missed out on something that's becoming really awesome!
I have learned that life can be short (not saying this because people say this) I went through a life threatening thing recently and now I'm really trying hard to grab life by the horns and go for what I want. No more "what if's" for me. :-)
I am truly happy having stayed single all my life and I have no regrets. But...I occasionally wonder if I had said yes to a certain proposal, if I would have been a different person and been just as happy being married and having kids. It's not that I am second guessing myself, it's just that I wonder whether my independent nature is the reason I stayed single or whether it was developed by staying single.
Oh well that's good. :-D
Thank you :-) :-)