I have been so traumatized by life this last decade you would not believe. I am pretty much alone by choice and I wonder each and every day what I can do to make sure my future is not a nightmare.
It's scary. But it's what I need to do now to get somewhere else. So, I hang in there. I have a lot of courage. I have no choice. I am still scared to death for the Nation, for the Globe and for my own self.
Last November I went to the emergency room because my stomach was killing me. I couldn't function. They took x-rays. They told me it was serious and could be cancer. It looked like cancer to them because it looked like it was growing out of my gallbladder. I go home and look up gallbladder cancer. It is terminal in most cases.
I had to go to the doctor and get a second opinion. I DID NOT WANT TO GO. I couldn't deal with this idea. COULD NOT.
After two months I went and it wasn't cancer. Most people would have gone and got treatment the next day. It took me two months.
This post was edited by WM BARR . =ABSOLUTE TRASH at September 8, 2019 4:34 PM MDT
Fear is often crippling. There are those rare times though when it is a great motivator. I just don't like making decisions and being proactive out of a place of fear. That scares me even more.
First of all, you can live without a gall bladder so you should have gotten a second opinion immediately. Had it been cancer, two months could be the difference between life and death if the cancer is quick to grow. I would never take one opinion if they say cancer. I would always get a second opinion and I would do it quickly. For two months you agonized over something you did not have. Foolish.
No, I'm not afraid of the truth. I know myself pretty well, so if someone says I can be a pain in the butt, that's the truth. I have no illusions as to my shortcomings. If people are smart, they won't ask me a question if they don't want to hear the truth.
Truth is where reality resides. How can I navigate through this life if I do not know the difference between what's real and what's not? In a word, from that viewpoint, no I do not fear the truth.
This post was edited by CallMeIshmael at September 8, 2019 9:22 PM MDT
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This post was edited by Randy D at September 8, 2019 6:13 PM MDT
WM BARR . =ABSOLUTE TRASH 