What are (or what were) your mother's general feelings about her relationship with you? ~

She has said it many times -------- "He's a good kid".

I wish I could tell you.  She wasn't a loving mother and she didn't express her feelings towards us.  I don't ever remember her telling me that she loved me.  Sometimes I did feel she loved me, and there were a few things she did that were quite sweet and loving.  But, most of the time all I felt was anger, or a complete lack of interest and acknowledgment that I even existed.  I believe she suffered from an undiagnosed mental illness, possibly severe depression.  She was a very unhappy woman who was lost in her own head most of the time, and seemed to forget that she had children.

She didn't't want a relationship
She didn't want me
she threw me away...
at least she let me get born.

She was dedicated to me and all of my siblings, and our children, until her last breath. I am certain that right now she is tending a baby in the palm of God's hand, for babies were her passion and her joy. A better mother, then grandmother, has never walked the Earth.

She started off by saying 'is that mine?' when I was first handed to her. Not convinced she ever had any feelings. 

She recently told me that I don't love her..................that was after I demanded her car keys after she almost killed two people on motorcycles.  She's 84 and will drive no more.  I do love her.

"I was her first and she spoiled me rotten,
     even though you'd never know it."