I started drinking less in 1983 (were you even born yet?) and I never looked back. My life slowly got better and this is an AA saying that I keep because it is true for me. "I would not trade my worst day sober for my best day drunk".
I had great days when I was partying. I did or I would never have gotten started on that path. I had a lot of fun. But I would not trade my worst day sober for my best day drunk.
I have totally beaten any desire to pick up another drink and I have been through hell and never even gave it a consideration.
Of course, being medicated the RIGHT way did wonders and enabled me to quit.
Depends on the day, who I am interacting with, and what I have been doing. I live in a Beer and Wine centric culture, drinking is Ok, over indulging is frowned upon greatly. So we drink, but in moderation
I started out that way. It took years for me not to care about what others frowned upon as they and I both started to drink in earnest. Hope that never happens to you and it doesn't seem like it will, but be careful. That disease sucks.