Today, and only for today, I am allowing myself to just free-flow. Yes, it is helped by the fact that I finally feel much better physically than I have in the last two weeks.
It is more likely helped by the fact that I am well enough and cleansed enough to allow a cannabis edible into my diet after several days of no edible. I am coherent and actually quite good to read. At least I think so. Nothing noteworthy, but I am making sense without any unnecessary side-tracking. I am focused and tripping balls at the same time.
Tsk tsk. What is wrong with me. What is wrong with me. What is wrong with me.
Oh, you SEE him too? That is GOD. That is GOD in the form of my Brother, Kurt Cobain. Those eyes? I would accept the stash if I could have those eyes. But not the pain that was behind them.
I wish him rest and peace. He was good. He was in pain. He carried a load for some reason that he didn't understand. His stomach hurt. I felt it. Oh man, if I had that as a daily issue, I could not go on. I see why he killed himself. He was lost in drugs, excess and despair.
That scares me for him. I want him whole and happy.
Quit what stuff? I have been sick to death for a week and a half. I am high on the real thing and I didn't quit. I stopped for awhile and don't do it like all the time. It makes for a wonderful holiday, let me tell you.
Just binge on what you binge on and let me be.
I wish I could get off on the contemplation of tilde's but I'm spoiled for the more expensive things in life.
This post was edited by WM BARR . =ABSOLUTE TRASH at December 26, 2017 9:13 AM MST
I think I am philosophical... I find Christmas has got me that way this year.. I have a confession too... When I first read the question - I misread it. I was convinced that it read, "Are you pornographic?" Now there's no telling what my answer to that one might have been :P
No, I don't think so.. What I am is... tired, very tired. Always in a hurry and perhaps not concentrating properly.. Freud would say, however, that my misreading is not an accident!
This post was edited by WM BARR . =ABSOLUTE TRASH at December 26, 2017 9:12 AM MST
WM BARR . =ABSOLUTE TRASH 