Some of us would think that Tilde Corner would be the ideal place for you. Why can't you have your own corner? Rosie does. If you really do feel they have become too much of an obsession with you there is always professional help and most of us here would be sympathetic. But I don't see anything wrong with tilde fascination and enthusiasm as long as you don't find it driving your whole life. You are capable of much more than just that which I would guess you already know!
I quite like your tilde games, though it seems you don't like my responses to them. Pity. But at least the lack of likes was honest. I deleted when I saw that you'd replied to every post but mine.