I am glad you're here too, as I am sure many people are. Though it has been awhile, you and I have spent time talking before and you are an extremely nice, humorous, and intelligent guy. Do not ever lend those dark thoughts any credence. They are lies told in an effort to destroy. Believe me, you have more than just self worth. You also have worth to others as well. We are each and everyone of us a child of God. We are special and we are loved and we are worth more than gold. This includes you.
I did but the full awesomeness of my work won't show until next spring/summer. I cut back and shaped a lot of ornamental grasses for a new grounds keeping customer. They have been neglected for a few years so they weren't growing well and had no shape. They should do well next year and they will all be the same size and shape. Cheers!
I straightened out my work bench, including sorting all the screws, nails, wall anchors, old drill bits, electrical connectors, plumbing parts, etc. from old projects.