I've never dated and it has really become a sad topic for me, I cry I feel so low, and the main reason I've declined dates is because of fear; that they'd find out how much abuse I've been through and ditch me. Also that I feel i'd GET anxiety while out too :/ I'm trying so hard to overcome this b/c I know I'm good , kind, loving, yet my subconscious CLINGS to that fear when a guy asks me out ... would it be fine or hav eyou ever dated JUST for that night of relaxation or fun? Not having to put pressure on things or yourself to 'be' something or have it 'go ' somewhere.. I think I get very stuck in that; and I just want something fun.. but is anyone out there NOT searching for a soul mate, or serious relationship?