Right. I think there was some form of existence before life began and the same after death. At the time I had a near death experience I remember a sensation of 'coming home'. Hmm..
Ecclesiastes 4:2-3 says the dead are happier than the living..' no more ups, downs, sideways or whatever. Being atheist I doubt any judgment, heaven or hell and stuff. Just a different dimension of existence.
It's up to you... open heart to love life is good. ...and then you die? haha only physical body dies you just move on to the next phase, move out of present digs and into another life. ...it only gets better...LOL