When you have been wronged, do you ever seek revenge?
I don't. I feel the most empowered when I have some sense of forgiveness; even if it means I choose to not have contact with someone again. How about you?
No - I might think about it and come up with ideas, but I never actually carry them out. I've learned that karma is a biotch and if I wait, revenge is dealt without me lifting a finger.
Ah, to fantasize! Yes, I would be a liar if I didn't have all sorts of thoughts of a baddy getting back what they dish out. But a lot of times they DO get it back, but not by our hand.
I used to really get so frustrated when I couldn't have the last word, but now I much prefer to let someone make an arse of themselves and leave them to stew in their own words. I really do believe there is power in that. Once someone crosses a certain line, I am done and they can have all the last words they want. I'm not listening.
No, for my own peace of mind, I don't give them that power over me. I don't behave like that and I wouldn't want to change my behaviors for someone who is lacking in ethics or morals. It's far better for me to let it go an move on as best as I can.
Surprisingly, I have less of a problem of being a push over since I have learned to vocalize my boundaries first then walk away when someone doesn't respect it. I'm pretty sure that people that know me know I will not stand for abuse. I've had my share in the past because I was "too nice". Those that have wronged me are simply out of my life. I don't need anything more.
Yes, that is my initial reaction and then I take the next breath and I again realize I am a mature adult. Then I let go of any retarded desire such as revenge.
I want to attract people like you into my life, not evil, revengeful people. And I don't really get to choose who does enter, but I do get to choose how I react. Maybe, if I consider a few things, I can see this challenge can be a great gift. Someone comes up and bullies me and I don't react and they keep it up and I give them a loving look of understanding. Maybe, I turn someone around that can still be reached. Maybe that one show of tenderness made a difference and inspired him/her to do the same and pay it forward.
I can then feel a lot better about the outcome than nursing a wound in my head and re-telling myself how I really got that guy. So, empty and toxic.
I feel you. I really do. I sure didn't get like this overnight. Parts of my life have been a living nightmare. Those closest to me know of some of those challenges I still face. I suppose after having enough happen to you, it puts things in perspective. EVERYTHING used to get to me and it made me an easy target. I clearly see it now. I didn't see it then. I just thought I was destined to have a pretty miserable life. But somehow, I started to see what I could control and what I couldn't. In the last decade, I have had some wonderful people come into my life and slowly help me grow. I also gave up a few toxic people that were killing me inside.
I think you have what it takes to move forward. Make no mistake. I still fall backwards, but somehow I get up again and do it a lot faster.
I always believed that people come into our lives for a reason. If we are lucky enough to recognize the ones that are good for us, there is no stopping us.
I became estranged from a younger sister after our mother died when I found out who she really was. It broke my heart. I could not understand where all her hate came from since she waited for our parents to both die before lashing. Sadly, she still lashes from what I hear. She has lost many great people in her life because of it and that makes me sad for her. Although she hurt me deeply, she has not made me bitter. If anything, it has made me appreciate the good people in my life, all the more.
That really is the best revenge. My ex-husband said I would never make it without him. I not only made it without him, but I have lived happier and better then he has without me.